Thursday, June 29, 2006

Trying

I'm really trying to get back in the mind set to lose weight. I've just completely let myself go in the last year...or two. I've let it take a backseat to alot of things in my life, and the truth is that I'm happier when I have something so real and serious to focus on. Everything in my life is healthier when I'm in good health...or trying to get into good health. I'm a more organized person and most importantly I'm much more active.

I'm not one of those people that loves their body for what it is, I'm just not. I don't consider myself insecure, but that doesn't mean that I have to enjoy being fat. I feel like my whole personality suffers for my shame. So I'm gonna try to go back on my diet. I think I'm close enough to the right mindset to do it for real this time.

About 4 years ago I lost nearly 80 lbs. (granted I wasn't as heavy from the start as I am now) but it was probably the best feeling I've ever had. I felt like I had something to be proud of. I was active and felt good about myself. I want that back. When I try to picture my future, I never see it with me being extremely heavy. My diet blog is back up and running, and I hope I can keep it updated because I think that might help me stay motivated.

We'll see if this is the real deal or not!

3 comments:

Rowan said...

i'm working on something similar....I only lost 40 before and felt good for that much...but I also felt like I was just beginning...I am back to the clinic in a week with much more to lose and hearing you lost 80 lbs, though I have much more to lose, makes me feel like maybe I can do it this time.,

Ms. Adventures said...

That's awesome! I'm all about being healthy. I'm here for you if you want to talk shop!


BTW could you possibly make your font just a little larger? It's very very small!

Anamika Anyone said...

Hey! How are you? Long time,huh?
I'm trying to lose weight from when I was 14...Its been one hell of a journey with lots of ups and downs..But the incredible feeling you get after losing even a kilogram is..well indescribable!
Here's wishing you all the very best!